One Hundred Books
Bonjour!
The One Hundred Books project is over, but the fun has just begun. Stay tuned for statistics, superlatives, honorary diplomas, handshakes, and medals of valor.
One Hundredth Book
Women As Lovers : Elfriede Jelinek
Serpent's Tail : 1995
Bought at Mercer Street Books for $6.50+
Started 12.12.06
Finished 12.20.06
The Line: "all that matters is that love has come at last, and that it hasn't come to an ugly, worn out, drunken, exhausted, vulgar, common woodcutter and her, but to a handsome, wornout, drunken, strong, vulgar, common woodcutter and her. that makes the whole thing special" (42).
Missed my goal date byeight days. And I'm fine with that!This book was worth it.
Ninety-Ninth Book
Nothing Serious : Justine Lévy
Melville House : 2006
Bought at Housing Works Used Book Cafe for $7.00+
Started 12.10.06
Finished 12.11.06
The Line: "What counts is the race, that's what he always says: What poisons existence is thinking too much about the finish line, you'll have lots of time to think about it afterwards, when you've lost, or when you can't run anymore" (177).
She almost lost mein the beginning, but thencame through in the clutch.
Ninety-Eighth Book
A Complicated Kindness : Miriam Toews
Counterpoint : 2004
Bought at Dawn Treader Book Shop for $5.50+
Recommended by Kevin Sampsell
Started 12.03.06
Finished 12.09.06
The Line: "Main Street is as dead as ever. There's a blinding white light at the water-tower end of it and Jesus standing in the centre of it in a pale blue robe with his arms out, palms up, like he's saying how the hell would I know? I'm just a carpenter" (47).
If someone wrote my
biography, it would be
nothing like this. Phew!
Ninety-Seventh Book
This Is About The Body, The Mind, The Soul, The World, Time, And Fate : Diane Williams
Grove : 1990
Bought at Book Traders for $4.50+
Started 12.02.06
Finished 12.02.06
The Line: "I have work to do which I love to do, but women are what I prefer to anything, to lie down with them, the turning to touch the woman and knowing I will be received for sex as soon as I wish to be welcome" (80).
Stuck on an island,
I would scan the horizon
wishing she'd save me.
Ninety-Sixth Book
All The Anxious Girls On Earth : Zsuzsi Gartner
Anchor : 2000
Donated by London
Started 11.29.06
Finished 12.01.06
The Line: "I could smell his wet rot. Creosote flesh. Gave me flash headaches, like being trapped in abandoned cabins while shifting timbers sweated sap. Like pressing my nose to a telephone pole. I had to stand upwind of him just to have a conversation" (96).
A razor blade forthe thinking class. Weetzie Bat
with less forgiveness.
Ninety-Fifth Book
Great Expectations : Kathy Acker
Grove : 1989
Bought at Dawn Treader Book Shop for $5.50+
Started 11.26.06
Finished 11.28.06
The Line: "As a result of his own barrenness, he develops a capacity to absorb the fertility of others. Of the real self. The only way you can get the real self is to rip someone off. The only way you can get love. Humans need love. You're a con man" (98).
It's no Tao Te Ching,
but I found strange comfort inher plush pipebomb prose.
Ninety-Fourth Book
Absence Makes The Heart : Lynne Tillman
Serpent's Tail : 1991
Bought at Dawn Treader Book Shop for $3.95+
Started 11.20.06
Finished 11.25.06
The Line: "When I was fourteen I discovered that boys would fall in love with me if I listened to everything they said. A strong sense of integrity prohibited me from continuing that form of seduction. And, in addition to integrity, there was the problem of having to continue to listen to them" (40).
Had I agency,I'd have changed the title toAwesome Makes The Heart.
Ninety-Third Book
Hard-Boiled Wonderland And The End Of The World : Haruki Murakami
Knopf : 1993
Bought from Symposia Books for $8.23
Started 11.9.06
Finished 11.14.06
The Line: "Now for a good twelve-hour sleep, I told myself. Twelve solid hours. Let birds sing, let people go to work. Somewhere out there, a volcano might blow, Israeli commandos might decimate a Palestinian village. I couldn't stop it. I was going to sleep" (126).
The guilt of likingsci-fi is outweighed by thejoy of chubby girls.
Ninety-Second Book
Believe Them : Mary Robison
Collier : 1998
Bought at Casco Bay Books for $4.00+
Started 11.6.06
Finished 11.8.06
The Line: "Wendy Vicker is just some poor thing from down the street. I moved a piece of furniture for her. She's as friendly as a retriever dog, and built like a goddam Turkish wrestler" (80).
A totally good book, but I can't think of a haiku today. Oops!
Ninety-First Book
Another Birth : Forough Farrokhzad
Zabankadeh : 2002
Bought from Jacaranda Online for $8.44
Started 11.3.06
Finished 11.6.06
The Line: "When they blindfolded my love's childish eyes / With the black kerchief of law / And jets of blood spurted out / From the agitated temples of my desire / When my life was nothing / But the tic tacks of a clock / I realized that I must, I must, and I must / Love madly" (122).
Another badass dead poet. Car wreck. At age thirty-two. Bummer.
Ninetieth Book
Insel : Mina Loy
Black Sparrow : 1991
Bought at 7th Avenue Books for $6.00+
Started 10.26.06
Finished 10.30.06
The Line: "This station, as he entered it, became the anteroom of dissolution, where the only constructions left of a real world were avalanches of newspapers, and even these aligned in a dusty perspective like ghosts of overgrown toys" (88).
How do you give thanks
to the dead? Turn on a light
(she was a lampshade).
Eighty-Ninth Book
When The Emperor Was Divine : Julie Otsuka
Anchor : 2002
Borrowed from Lori Saginaw
Started 10.23.06
Finished 10.25.06
The Line: "I stole your last bag of sugar. I took a swig from your best bottle of brandy. I pulled out the nails from your white picket fence and sold them to the enemy to melt down and make into bullets" (141).
It's strange how foolishwe are. Maybe it's justice.Maybe it's just us.
Eighty-Eighth Book
Florida : Christine Schutt
Harcourt : 2004
Bought at Strand Book Store for $1.00+
Started 10.18.06
Finished 10.22.06
The Line: "I drove on through the spattered light of fall, the warm, monied promise of it, the light's saying, Yes, it is possible: Purpose might find me and success might follow. My father could have been a poet; it is not absurd" (76).
Another reason
why I miss New York City
(it's my Florida).
Eighty-Seventh Book
Ticknor : Sheila Heti
FSG : 2005
Bought at 7th Ave Books for $6.00+
Started 10.15.06
Finished 10.17.06
The Line: "I often go to the mirror when crying, to se how I might look. I wonder whether I'd have any sympathy for a man such as myself. Sometimes I feel I would, and it makes me cry even harder; other times I do not and it fills me with despair--well, then I weep more pitifully than before" (61).
Watched The Machinisttonight and thought how Ticknorcould have played that part.
Eighty-Sixth Book
You're A Bad Man, Aren't You? : Susannah Breslin
Future Tense : 2003
Bought at Powell's for $4.95+
Started 10.13.06
Finished 10.14.06
The Line: "She had envisioned something more like a dark car's quiet glide across the black ice of a nighttime street, the slow fall of a supine body into a hospital bed, the poetic righteousness of a personal eclipse among concentric circles of family members" (48).
I wish I could say"midget porn" in twenty-onedifferent languages.
Eighty-Fifth Book
SCUM Manifesto : Valerie Solanas
AK Press : 1996
Bought at Mercer Books for $2.95+
Started 10.12.06
Finished 10.12.06
The Line: "Eliminate men and women will shape up. Women are improvable; men are not, although their behavior is. When SCUM gets hot on their asses it'll shape up fast" (44).
Dear Santa, All Iwant this year is to not lovecrazy dead women.
Welcome Back
Thank you, it's good to be here. Two months, sixteen books, game on.
Book 33

Appointment in Samarra by John O'Hara
1934: Vintage Books
251 pages
Recommended by Jamie York
Began: 14 June 2006
Finished: 19 June 2006
At the start of the Depression, this takes a look at that state when it is put down to a little d. The actions take place in and out of cars with eventual devasting ends. I wasn't expecting this book to be so clever, so quick, so sexy, so thorough, so effectively affecting. Oh John O'Hara, what quiet heartbreaks.
Quote: "I feel like the devil..."
Book 32

Teacher Man: A Memoir by Frank McCourt
2005: Scribner
272 pages
Recommended by Maggie Bright
Began: 7 June 2006
Finished: 13 June 2006
I guess it is fitting that on the last days of instruciton for this school year I have been reading a memoir on the act of teaching. McCourt kicks everything off with laughter as he writes about his first day of being in front of the classroom but things meander and linger just like anytime in class or in a school building does. It is an enjoyable read no matter how much I wished I was listening to it on tape so I could hear his voice reciting his tales. I know this is McCourt's way of thanking the profession, paying due to his past, and giving back to his students but I can't help but think it is also because he misses the job, and the captive audience.
Quote: "Mea culpa."
Book 31

Mrs. Caliban by Rachel Ingalls
1983: Harvard Common Press
125 pages
Recommended by Maya Haynes
Began: 25 May 2006
Finished: 6 June 2006
I don't remember anything about the reptilian brain but this book did make me uncormfortable. Not the big green reptile from the ocean who was abused in the Institute. Not the layered metaphors and meanings thick and slathered. Not the Californian nights and the domestic un-bliss. Not the children as punks and ex-wives as alcoholics or seperate vacations. No, none of the parts on their own made me squirm but taken in whole under the flourescent subway lights in sleepy hazes did me in and made me itchy.
Quote: "It's somebody called Merce Cunningham."
Book 30

Under A War-Torn Sky by L.M. Elliott
2001: Hyperion Paperbacks for Children
284 pages
Recommended by Matthew Hui
Began: 30 May 2006
Finished: 6 June 2006
My student, Matt, was not graceful in recommending this book. One morning, before classes, it was "Here. Read this." and a shove of a paperback into my hands. Having just finished teaching World War II, I wasn't sure if I wanted to go back into the air raids and bombings, let alone from an American viewpoint. I, in turn, shoved the book into my bag, scrounging it out the next morning while I waited for coffee and croissants to kick in. The book starts off in the middle of things and you find the main character ready to depart into the sky. Fighting and planes, my interest waned and I read without caring for the first 20 pages. Then the plane is shot out of the sky, all the characters you were just introduced to, save the protagonist, are gone and instantly with the narrator you are plunged into a world of spies and French maquis. I looked forward to reading this book and took the twists and turns as they came. Now I have to grumble "Thanks" to Matt.
Quote: "Eggs did fly."
Book 29

We Came All The Way From Cuba So You Could Dress Like This? Stories by Achy Obejas
1994: Cleis Press
131 pages
Recommended by Maya Haynes
Began: 15 May 2006
Finished: 18 May 2006
Quick but not necessarily pleasant these are late 80s early 90s stories of Latina lesbian life in Chicago, homosexual men battling AIDS, Cuban counterrevolutioinaries, and junkies out of their minds. Read on the subway, I felt a layer of grime and fervant energy. While reading this book I also read a story of Lara Vapnyar's. I prefer Vapnyar but I am not sure what that means in the bigger scheme of it all. Obejas has a clear style and it is unrelenting. It is blunt and, while this book was not necessarily shocking, it is fearless and bold. I wonder what I would have felt reading this book ten years ago but right now it was just another taste of an approach to writing and getting worlds out onto paper for me to see if I like.
Quote: ""Besides, that you're American is an accident of geopgraphy," he said."
Book 28

The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion
2006: Knopf
227 pages
Recommended by Lara Evangelista
Began: 10 May 2006
Finished: 15 May 2006
There is Joan Didion with her severe looks and California glam and there is her older now. Both of these versions of her are shown on the dust jacket that wraps around the devastatingly gorgeous writing inside. What moved me, more than the shock and grieving, was the love affair of Didion and Dunne and their nearly forty years of marriage. For all the beauty of this book, the elegance of the writing on death and loss, a complete love story is told of a marriage imperfectly perfect and whole. There is family and a world where being alive is connecting with others and life is about the people who inhabit the world with us. Didion in her looks, her persona, her writing, always seemed stark to me before but this is rich and giving to the reader, so personal without being exclusive, raw without being a mess. Even the cover shows a quiet way of remembering with John's name illuminated in blue.
Quote: "Time is the school in which we learn."
I put the bad in sabbatical.
Dear Lixxx and Erin, who regularly attend to this project:
As I will be
quite busy quite soon, I must once again default on my loans, entering into a two-month sabbatical. You can expect me back here on July 5th, when I will promptly devour my remaining sixteen books.
Thank you dearly for your attentions.
Book 27

Freakonomics: A Rogue Economist Explores the Hidden State of Everything by Steven D. Levitt and Stephen J. Dubner
2005: William Morrow
232 pages
Recommended by Joseph Luft
Began: 1 May 2006
Finished: 8 May 2006
Almost three summers ago I read a feature on an economist in the New York Times Magazine that had me calling friends and feel like I was playing a complicated game of logic. When last summer it seemed like everyone in New York City was reading Freakonomics, I spent my time asking "Is that the guy I read about in the New York times back when?" I wasn't aware that the co-author was the Times Magazine writer and that the book that became the phenomenon was an expansion of what started from the article. Economics fascinates me partly because it is as foreign as another language to meant Levitt makes this science an art of observing, data collecting, analysis and flipping things upside their heads. This book was a clever romp and while I still don't know if I am, or should be, offended by parts of this book but I do know I am jealous of the thought process and connections these authors were able to make. I feel like I should scramble what I know and come up with a new reality. Or else just ask Levitt to be my pen pal.
Quote: "(If you identify strongly with either person number one or person number two, the following exercise might strike you as offensive, and you may want to skip this paragraph and the next.)"
Book 26

Good in Bed by Jennifer Weiner
2001: Washington Square Press
376 pages
Recommended by Elisabeth Snell
Began: 2 May 2006
Finished: 6 May 2006
Chick lit is like eating Hostess Cupcakes. There really is no reason to do it but, yet, you really really want to. They go down quick, easy, sugary and then you wonder: what did I just do? I watched the movie "In Her Shoes" in the fall with 6 of my closest female friends. It is chick flik yet it has some brains to it. Good in Bed was addicting making me wonder what it is aobut these books and like "In Her Shoes" it had fleshed out characters even if I wanted to protest with so much of it. I joked that reading this type of book was negating brain cells but there is something so enjoyable about it. Like television. I won't feel bad about reading this. I will admit that I hid the cover each and every time I took it out of my bag on the subway and picked up Joan Didion's latest book which I am going to start tonight so as to look like I wasn't the typical "chick."
Quote: "He shook his head and walked away."
Eighty-Fourth Book
What Begins With Bird : Noy Holland
FC2 : 2005
Bought at Park Slope Books for $6.00+
Started 4.30.06
Finished 5.2.06
The Line: "Papa, I am four almost. And after this I will be six and after that I will be ten and when I become fifteen I'll drive and I will drive so fast and then I will be twenty. Then I will have one leg. Old people only have one leg and then I will be dead, Papa, and you will come and save me. I will be in a pond" (69-70).
In one story, thenarrator gets covered inhorse blood. My fave, natch!
Eighty-Third Book
The Bell Jar : Sylvia Plath
Faber and Faber : 1996
Bought from Mercer Books for $3.50+
Started 4.27.06
Finished 4.29.06
The Line: "I hadn't, at the last moment, felt like washing off the two diagonal lines of dried blood that marked my cheeks. They seemed touching, and rather spectacular, and I thought I would carry them around with me, like the relic of a dead lover, till they wore off of their own accord" (108).
Sylvia Plath isofficially the coolestdead woman ever.
Book 25

The Neon Bible by John Kennedy Toole
1989: Grove Weidenfeld
162 pages
Recommended by Noah Amos
Began: 28 April 2006
Finished: 30 April 2006
John Kennedy Toole wrote this when he was 16. I don't remember what I wrote when I was 16 but I know I smelled like always.
Quote: "It was hot in the show, and it smelled like always."
Book 24

Third Girl from the Left by Martha by Martha Southgate
2005: Houghton Mifflin
272 pages
Recommended by Maya Haynes
Began: 23 April 2006
Finished: 27 April 2006
Three generations of women, their stories, and their connection both to each other, happiness, and pain through movies. There were clunky places, heavy-handed and repetitive but then there were little gems of language and acceptance that brought me back in. Angela, the daughter of Mildred, mother of Tam, centralizes the book and orbits the other two around her. She is the characater that is written about with words like "naked," "lesbian," and "honey-colored skin" that made the man smelling of alcohol reading over my shoulder late the other night in the subway stop ask me what I was reading afterall. Trying to get a rise out of me he asked if he reminded me of the hero of the book. As I told him the book was about women, three generatiosn of women, her seemed reluctant to let go of his original attempt and asked me, "What about the hero? What about the guy who saves the day?" He laughed a little when I told him, no, not here. The women can save themselves here.
Quote: "Keeping everything in wore her out."
Eighty-Second Book
The Activist : Renee Gladman
Krupskaya : 2003
Bought from Small Press Distribution for $11.00+
Started 4.27.06
Finished 4.27.06
The Line: "Paranoia cousins you in every encounter, every look given. Your mail comes and you must receive it with an extraordinary nonchalance, almost tossing it back at the carrier from lack of concern. Strangers ask you for the time and you are compelled to express your patriotism" (94).
This is fabulous,like a new gown, Calvino,like a dreamtiger.
Eighty-First Book
A Season In Hell & The Drunken Boat : Arthur Rimbaud
New Directions : 1961
Donated by someone a long time ago
Started 4.25.06
Finished 4.25.06
The Line: "I called to the executioners that I might gnaw their rifle-butts while dying. I called to the plagues to smother me in blood, in sand. Misfortune was my God. I laid myself down in the mud. I dried myself in the air of crime. I played sly tricks on madness" (3).
The introductionstates that Rimbaud dealt in arms.And he lost a leg.
Eightieth Book
Story Of O : Pauline Reage
Book-of-the-Month Club : 1993
Bought at Park Slope Books for $5.00+
Started 4.23.06
Finished 4.25.06
The Line: " ' . . . the fact is,' said the other voice, 'that if you do tie her up, or whip her a little, and if she begins to like it--then that's no good either. We've got to move beyond the pleasure stage. We must make the tears flow' " (10).
Caught a few strong lookswhen I read this on the train.No come-hithers though.
Seventy-Ninth Book
The Cement Garden : Ian McEwan
Anchor : 2003
Donated by Davy Rothbart
Recommended by Davy Rothbart
Started 4.21.06
Finished 4.23.06
The Line: "I had climbed over the mattress and was balancing on a ridge of broken wall, thinking about this, when I saw the handle of the sledgehammer in the grass. I jumped down and siezed it. Gray wood lice had been living under the massive iron head and now they ran backward and forward in blind confusion across the little patch of earth. I swung the hammer down on them and felt the ground shake beneath my feet" (48).
I once baked cementbrownies. I wanted them tonever come apart.
Book 23

Truth & Beauty: A Friendship by Ann Patchett
2004: Perennial
257 pages
Recommended by Sheri Appel
Began: 21 April 2006
Finished: 22 April 2006
I walked onto the campus of Sarah Lawrence as a freshman and wanting to a be writer. So it seemed did half of the other entering freshman, not to mention the students who were already there. I enrolled in fiction writing classes while friends partitioned themselves off to the poets and it was there that I noticed the difference. The poetry teachers were the inescapably cool ones. There seemed to be a gang of them- Marie Howe, Michael Klein, Tom Lux, and Lucy Grealy- and they walked together across campus in leather jackets with an aura of their fame and talent like a halo encircling them. They were the superstars of campus with readings in the libraries or in New York City to attend and books lined neatly and prestigiously lined up in the bookstore. I tried to pound away pages in my fiction classes as I heard the stories from friends who were writing scathing lines for the poets teaching them. Lucy Grealy was one of those poets and as her memoir was still newly published at the time her story was fresh on everyone's lips. I never knew her but felt like I knew something since I knew her book and could see her face. I didn't know anything as I found out from reading Ann Patchett's book but could relate to it all since so many of the names in this book were ones known to me as well as the small bird-like shape that was Lucy Grealy as she hustled around the Bronxville campus hip and vibrant. Despite the sad downward turn to her life as shown in this memoir, it filled in the gaps and questions I had about Grealy's death by telling me the story of a beautiful friendship.
Quote: "People made an effort to find out the details of her life. They knew her story and mistook that for actually knowing her, exactly as I had done."
Seventy-Eighth Book
Pornocracy : Catherine Breillat
Jovian : 2006
Bought from Half.com for $12.56
Started 4.12.06
Finished 4.12.06
The Line: "Didn't you understand that it was nothing, that we had to free ourselves from the arrogance of the erect member, even if we are to like its initial and dazzling necessity; that the act which gives you such great importance and self-esteem is nothing but the clash of corruptible flesh" (102).
A man, a woman,an exploratory rompinside the vagi-
Book 22

The Secret Life of Bees by Sue Monk Kidd
2002: Penguin
302 pages
Recommended by Erika Tuttle
Began: 15 April 2006
Finished: 17 April 2006
I grabbed this book to read on an overnight train from New York to Ohio and it was one of those easy reads that goes down, well, like honey- and just as stickily sweet. The incredibly creepy man who temporarily sat down next to me for a time talked to me despite the earphones on my ears. "That's a woman's book, isn't it," he said. And yes, yes, I nodded it sure is. Women read this book and it has all the trappings of an Oprah Book Club novel or a Lifetime movie. Perhaps I am not giving it enough credit. It was addictive and the characters were easy all tied neatly up at the end. This is a book to give to Mom and she will love you for it. But I did like all the beehive bee stuff.
Quote: "She's the Black Madonna of Breznichar in Bohemia."
Seventy-Seventh Book
Damned If I Do : Percival Everett
Graywolf : 2004
Bought at Park Slope Books for $5.00+
Started 4.18.06
Finished 4.19.06
The Line: "He will not tell anyone that a fish has spoken to him. He will keep it inside his head. He will keep it next to the fact that lately he has not enjoyed sex with his wife. He will keep it next to his fear of escalators. He will keep it next to the fact that he hated the way his uncle hugged him just a little too long" (154).
I almost passed outon the train while reading thisbook, it's just that good.
Seventy-Sixth Book
Inside : Hélène Cixous
Schocken : 1986
Bought at Housing Works Used Book Cafe for $7.50+
Started 4.16.06
Finished 4.17.06
The Line: "Hurt? Nono, you know me, it doesn't hurt, here, you see my little finger all by itself on the sheet, swimming around in the blood like a tadpole, far away from my hand, well I think it's cute, look, you see, almost like a white tadpole in a red canal, hurt? it's far away, and yet my hand doesn't miss it" (125).
Add her to the list
of magical creatures, like
unicorns and dwarves.
Seventy-Fifth Book
The Suitors : Ben Ehrenreich
Counterpoint : 2006
Bought at Strand Book Store for $11.50+
Started 4.12.06
Finished 4.15.06
The Line: "Everyone's got a hustle, and takes what they can get. His old girl keeps her cloudy claws afloat around his heart. She slips beneath his eyelids each time he blinks. She sings in his ear when he's not listening. She dances round his bed when he's asleep" (154).
I love the part withJesus on the cross and avulture on his dick.
Book 21

Educating Esme by Esme Raji Codell
2001: Algonquin Books
205 pages
Recommended by Lynette Harper and Julie Kessler
Began: 14 April 2006
Finished: 14 April 2006
Before I came to New York to teach, Lynette gave me a copy of this book to read. I didn't read it. Burdened and besieged my first year of teaching in the Bronx, I don't remember reading much other than The New Yorker and LeBlanc's Random Family. I was trying to escape school and remember who I was outside of my new role in the classroom. I quickly forgot about this little yellow book in my possession. Last year, during our meetings over the course of opening a new school, Julie asked me if I had read Educating Esme. I brushed it off, said no, but dug it out and put it on my bookshelf to read at some point during Silent Reading time. I never got to it. The New Yorker again. On vacation in Chile, sitting around with Julie talking about education, our classrooms, school management, our students, Julie asked me again if I had read Educating Esme and again I had to admit that I hadn't. It seems fitting that it is today, the second day of spring break, that I devoted a few hours to read this book. In the two days since I have last seen my students I have been able to distance myself a little and reconstruct a day of how I would spend it if the hours were not dictated by bells and curriculum. It is dizzying since today's relaxation is in such extreme contrast to my usual 9-5, or I should say, 7-6. It was a good read and while I teach high school and cannot fathom the idea of teaching fifth grade, Esme's account of her first year teaching in Chicago was an accurate portrayal of the ins and outs, highs and lows or teaching that I have read in a while. It was an honest portrayal of a love for the profession of education but complete in how tiring it is, how frustrating, how ridiculous. There is so little exaggeration in her book but I wonder if I would have, could have, recognized that before I began teaching. I have another week before spring break ends and the final push before the year end begins. I will distance myself a little more this week before returning to the classroom hopefully renewed and ready to engage myself and others despite all the madness.
Quote: "They talk about the rewards and gratifications in teaching school, and there is a share of it, but they don't tell you it's like joining a monastery or going to hell or sleepwalking or being afraid, afraid as you were when you were a small child."
Book 20

Demian by Herman Hesse
1965: Harper & Row
158 pages
Recommended by Janne Piehl
Began: 3 April 2006
Finished: 13 April 2006
My day to day obligations and life got in the way of reading this small little book cover to cover in any sort of normal fashion. I have never read any Hesse and as I am currently teaching World War II to my students, I was especially curious about him and his relation to Germany and the two world wars. This book, slim in pages but heavy with content of one man's coming-of-age and dissolution with societal norms, fit aptly with what I was trying to understand and teach but it was difficult. Hesse's style, or at this translation, was clunkier than what I have been reading otherwise, and I found myself taking it seriously but not sure when and where to read it. It was also hard because the character of Emil Sinclair's coming of age in no way related to my own that I felt even more foreign to the story and the events that were happening in it. I can say that I walk away from this book with the utmost respect for Hesse but also a fear for myself in completing this project in a timely manner. Now off to read...
Quote: "The end begins."
Seventy-Fourth Book
Morvern Callar : Alan Warner
Anchor : 1997
Bought at Strand Book Store for $1.00+
Started 4.6.06
Finished 4.11.06
The Line: "Bare, sitting on a beach with bluey sea so lovely like in brochures, the horse heads came out of the water but fixed to men bodies. All the bare bodies had a hand missing. The menhorses walked up and surrounded me. Blood came from the missing hands when they turned me over to attack" (45).
Jealous the whole time.I too want a lover tohack into pieces.
Seventy-Third Book
The Tombs Of Atuan : Ursula K. Le Guin
Simon Pulse : 2003
Bought at Housing Works Used Book Cafe for $2.00+
Recommended by Peter Rothbart
Started 4.2.06
Finished 4.5.06
The Line: "Full of vision, his eyes gazed through the black paintings on the walls, through the walls and the earth and the darkness, seeing the open sea stretch unbroken to the sunset, the golden dragons on the golden wind" (104).
I still get chills whenI read about dragons. Whatcan I say? They're hot.
Seventy-Second Book
Lenny Bruce Is Dead : Jonathan Goldstein
Counterpoint : 2006
Bought at Mercer Books for $3.95
Started 3.29.06
Finished 3.31.06
The Line: "Sex at eighteen had been like eating saltines over the sink in the middle of the night, petting a dog to make someone happy, saying hello over and over, faster and faster, eating a sandwich with tiny bites until you reach a point where you think you're never going to finish" (127).
I can't think of ahaiku that doesn't mentionsex or yogurt. See?!
Book 19

The Dogs of Bedlam Farm by Jon Katz
2004: Random House
265 pages
Recommended by Sara Newman
Began: 27 March 2006
Finished: 3 April 2006
I am not one to shy away from books about dogs except for my personal fear that I may be one of those obsessive people about dog fans. Fortunately, Jon Katz writes about those people here in this book and my love for dogs has not, and hopefully will never, reached that point of fanaticism. For as much as I love dogs, it is not the same reading about other dogs when there is not one curled at my feet. This book grew on me. At first I was reading to read, to get back on track with this project, to get more books under my belt. But somewhere in that reading I then began to actually become interested in what I was reading and cared about Katz and his unmanageable sheep farm and herding dogs. It was a quick read and one that I may not take with me across years (or even months) but if you approach reading like watching TV and want some entertainment on a sunny afternoon in the park, then here it is. I still wish I had a dog too.
Quote: "I also happily do my work amid almost indescribable chaos, and no matter what's happening outside, I'm always happy and engaged to be telling my story."
Book 18

Edinburgh by Alexander Chee
2001: Welcome Rain
212 pages
Recommended by Maya Haynes
Began: 27 March 2006
Finished 30 March 2006
There is a beauty in the familiar and there is little of that in this book for me. Where that known andd comfort did come in was in the detailed and exacting placement of events and names of cities in Maine. There was much of this book I did not want to let in, did not want to let in to my mornings and afternoons, despite the ease and addictive power of the prose. Where I was happy to linger and dwell was in the Maine roads of Munjoy Hill and Two Lights. I waivered with this book from hating all that it brought to me in terms of difficult matters but then I got hooked and found beautiful writing and layering of English. But there was so much to make your head swim in a sinking way here. So much to not know whether you were being led astray or in a path to salvation from it all. I am glad to have read this, stayed up late in bed being sucked in by it all, but not without struggle and frustration.
Quote: "Besides, nothing would ever get started if we didn't first attach romance."
Seventy-First Book
On Walking In Ice : Werner Herzog
Jonathan Cape : 1991
Bought from Rogue Books for $38.25
Started 3.28.06
Finished 3.29.06
The Line: "The soles burn from the red-hot core in the earth's interior. The loneliness is deeper than usual today. I'm developing a dialogical rapport with myself. Rain can leave a person blind" (65).
Werner just made mylist of people I'll mourn whenthey die. If he dies.
Seventieth Book
The Melancholy Of Anatomy : Shelley Jackson
Anchor : 2002
Bought at Strand Book Store for $6.00
Started 3.24.06
Finished 3.27.06
The Line: "When she got home, she started a letter to her girlfriend. An old-fashioned letter, on paper. She signed her name at the bottom. But when she lifted her pen, she pulled her signature straight. Then all her words unraveled. The letters lost their loops and slithered right off the page" (126).
New content addedto the image lexicon:blood-filled skyscraper.
Sixty-Ninth Book
As She Climbed Across The Table : Jonathan Lethem
Vintage : 1997
Bought at Strand Book Store for $6.00+
Recommended by Crystal Hernandez
Started 3.22.06
Finished 3.23.06
The Line: "Cynthia, can't you see I'm operating at a disadvantage? Everyone around has a theory or an obsession. I'm making it up as I go along" (116).
I empathized withthe blind pair: one black, one white,but not knowing which.
Book 17

Winesburg, Ohio by Sherwood Anderson
1999: The Modern Library
231 pages
Recommended by Noah Amos
Began: 15 March 2006
Finished: 26 March 2006
If I were to send you a postcard from Winesburg, Ohio, it would go something along the lines of this: Greetings from a small town in the the Middle West! I have gone back in time and where quaint should be found, characters and eccentrics linger. The townfolk are raging with hormones and activities of a metropolitan sort seem to be happening behind close blinds and empty fields. The men are nervy, pervy and wry. The woman are wanton, bent, and dry. Everyone seemst o be racing to age of maturity or death. I am taking the train out of here. See you soon.
Quote: "With me it's different."
Sixty-Eighth Book
Take The Cannoli : Sarah Vowell
Simon & Schuster : 2000
Bought at Strand Book Store for $4.95+
Recommended by Jackie O
Started 3.18.06
Finished 3.21.06
The Line: "Once a family member hits puberty, odds are that everybody is not going to have the same ideals. Unless everybody gets together and agrees that the new ideals involve turning the front yard into a skate ramp and officially changing Dad's name to Fuckhead" (120).
I want to see somepictures of Sarah Vowellat a goth nightclub.
Sixty-Seventh Book
A Clockwork Orange : Anthony Burgess
Ballantine : 1980
Bought at 7th Avenue Books for $2.50+
Started 3.11.06
Finished 3.17.06
The Line: "And I was given a nice warm dressing-gown too and lovely toofles to put my bare nogas in, and I thought: 'Well, Alex boy, little 6655321 as was, you have copped it lucky and no mistake. You are really going to enjoy it here'" (97).
I first heard the term "ultra-violence" from a Canadian band.
Book 16

The Giver by Lois Lowry
1993: Houghton Mifflin
192 pages
Recommended by Julie Kessler
Began: 13 March 2006
Finished: 15 March 2006
Last winter I spent a couple of weeks reading some short stories by Banana Yoshimoto about religious cults and fantasized alternative religions (if such things exist- remember it was a book of fiction). Now, with winter still lingering, I found myself amidst another surreal community, this time a utopian one devised by Lois Lowry. Both books, both themes, are a little creepy to me no matter what good intentions they hold. Also, like most Young Adult books, this one lists the age it is intended for. The publisher states that this book is for 12-14 year olds and while I am sure this book is written for 12-14 year olds, I wonder what they make of it. I also learned from the publisher/copywrite page that if you write about utopian communities then your book will be considered science fiction. What this book had was a warmth and a great way of unfolding not only the truth behind the community's secrets and origins, but also the discovery, maturity, and humanity of the main character. This book was greatly addicting for all of its uncomfortable and difficult moments.
Quote: "I accept your apology."
Book 15

Flour Babies by Anne Fine
1992: Laurel Leaf Books
178 pages
Recommended by Sara Newman
Began: 10 March 2006
Finished: 12 March 2006
Sara found this book for me after I did the Flour Baby Project (or experiment to use a better term). If there is one thing I do not want to have happen this year, or next year, or last year, is dealing with the pregnancy of one of my students. That, and the fact that in the last five years, my friends have started having families of their own, I have seen the struggles, long hours, and demands that raising children has placed on them. I can barely imagine it in my own life, let alone having a baby as a teen (with a teacher like me yelling at them all day about the importance of things like Animal Farm). So in that spirit, my students embarked on the very project that the troublesome boys of this novel undertook. I can't quite tell, or remember, if my students were as funny and unwittingly charming, about the experiment as the boys of this book, but here and there I get little hints from them that the project did its trick and that they realize parenthood is more than just a cute little boy or girl (or bag of flour). As a teacher though, I am glad that my students didn't get the same idea as the protagonist as to what to do with the bags of flour at the end of the project. And little do my students know that their "babies" turned into delicious batches of chocolate chip cookies.
Quote: "The more you thought about it, the more extraordinary it was, this business of having babies. No doubt about it, it was dangerous."
Sixty-Sixth Book
Nine Stories : J.D. Salinger
Little, Brown : 1991
Bought at Seventh Avenue Books for $2.50+
Recommended by Hillary Dickerson
Started 3.9.06
Finished 3.10.06
The Line: "All the same, though, I where
ever I happen to be I don't think I'm the type that doesn't even lift a finger to prevent a wetting from flatting. Accordingly, I've gone ahead and jotted down a few revealing notes on the bride as I knew her almost six years ago. If my notes should cause the groom, whom I haven't met, an uneasy moment or two, so much the better" (87).
Oh Teddy. I can't
stop thinking about you. This
promise is for keeps.
Book 14

So Long, See You Tomorrow by William Maxwell
1980: Vintage Inernational
135 pages
Recommended by Jamie York
Began: 7 March 2006
Finished: 10 March 2006
I finished this book not an hour ago, when the sun was still coming up, and nothing of the day had happened yet to affect what had happened while I slept. It took only a description, written so elegantly but the author, of a dog howling to fill my eyes with water. And it took only 135 pages to make me feel like I won't look at things quite the same way again. There will be shadows with me today of the characters of this book and the words written that matched them so well.
Quote: "We were both creatures of the period."
Book 13

The Woman in the Dunes by Kobo Abe
1964: Vintage International
241 pages
Recommended by Noah Amos
Began: 2 March 2006
Finished: 7 March 2006
I jumped into The Woman in the Dunes as eager as the amateur entomologist protagonist bounded through the seaside dunes in search of sand beetles. But as Niki Jumpei gets caught in the little sandtrap, I also was snagged in the nuances of the emotions and pressures of this book. As each day passes for the main character and his mood, perception, and circumstances shift minutely yet drastically as the sands, I also felt the grit and the struggle. I understood every word of this book and each sentence. However, I didn't always feel like the author and I were understanding one another or that I was everything being told to me. At least I wasn't always understanding why- why the events were happening, why everything was so maddening, why it was all written. And yet there I was, mimicking the emotions of the main character as if by nature. He was a man looking for a bug who became trapped just like one. And I was a reader looking for an adventure who became ensnared by Abe's words.
Quote: " But what could be so displeasing to them about "Hope?""
Sixty-Fifth Book
The Story Of The Eye : Georges Bataille
Penguin : 1982
Bought at Seventh Avenue Books for $4.00+
Started 3.5.06
Finished 3.6.06
The Line: "But as of then, no doubt existed for me: I did not care for what is known as 'pleasures of the flesh' because they really are insipid; I cared only for what is classified as 'dirty'."
I'll never look ata bull the same after this.Or a church. Or eggs.
Sixty-Fourth Book
The Rendezvous : Justine Lévy
Scribner : 1999
Bought at Strand Book Store for $5.50+
Started 3.3.06
Finished 3.4.06
The Line: "I've done some stupid things, but I've calmed down, I've thought a lot about it, you have to come back, you're my child, my little girl, I love you, come on, we'll play jokes on the telephone the way we used to. Come on, my dear, my little tiny child, come on. Let's try it. Give me a week, just one week. We'll make up for lost time, all those years of craziness. Come on, come on" (45).
Lydia Davis.
The translator of this was
Lydia Davis.
Sixty-Third Book
Taking Care : Joy Williams
Vintage : 1985
Bought at Strand Book Store for $5.50+
Recommended by Liz Woodbury
Started 2.23.06
Finished 3.2.06
The Line: "There are three things that Kathering feels are very nice about the turkey. One is the way sunlight falls through his red wattles, making them almost transparent. Two are the sounds he makes which are a cross between an electronic game and a mourning dove. And the third is that Katherine likes his feet very much" (161).
Lizzie: which storydid you once tell me was lovedby your dear Scott Heim?
Book 12

How To Be Good by Nick Hornby
2001: Riverhead Books
305 pages
Recommended by Erika Tuttle
Began: 25 February 2006
Finished: 1 March 2006
Written on the first page of this book in black pen were the words "facetious" and "parodic." Since the first page of this book is the one where reviews from newspapers are written I was left wondering if these handwritten words were the previous owners own comments, traits for me to watch for, or just quite notes. Either way, that is how I started my time with this book and it is also how I start this posting. I hated this book and I am trying to figure out why. Is it facetious and parodic or is it that I used to love Nick Hornby back when I was young and Hornby was young and he wrote books about boy things like football and fans but showed those boy things in boys that were sensitive and heartbroken. But now I am older. And so is Hornby and this book is narrated by someone older, with kids and an un-boy like husband, and I could not for the life of me like the main character. I wanted to like the main character, I really did, mainly because for the life of me I could not like the other characters either. I got tired reading this and while there were moments- shiny and bright- that made me laugh and snort and sigh, the rest made me read fast and yawn. Save me from talking about the title and making some quippy comment.
Quote: "I don't want David to be David anymore."